going insane
June 08, 2004 at 9:02 p.m.
So, it's been well over a month. Yeah, I'm ignoring my diary. *sigh*Well, I'm home. Woopdidoo. I already wish I was back at Transy. I feel....well....stiffled here. I hate it. Yes, I missed my parents and I missed my friends. But I don't feel like I have, well, quite frankly, freedom here. I have a car now. No license. I can't even drive it yet. My parents bought it the friday before I came home and it hasn't been checked out yet. But there it is, sitting in the yard. AND I CAN'T FRIGGIN' DRIVE IT! I hate that! I love the car..I want to drive it. I actually *want* to drive. But I can't fucking do it until my parents get off their ass and have it checked out.
They're procrastinating on everything. My FAFSA form is on hold too. I can't get aide until they send in certain paperwork. THEY HAVEN'T DONE IT YET. I'm getting extremely pissed off. I want a job, but I can't seem to find one. I've asked mom to help me type up a resume. I've never really written one before. I mean, yeah, I've had to do a fake one for class, but that was forever ago. She hasn't helped me yet.
I'm just very very angry right now. I want to strangle my parents. I want out of here. I want to drive my car. I want to go back to school. I just don't want to be here.
I really miss Jerrod too. I got to stay with him for a week and a half after school let out. I had a lot of fun...and now I sit here at home not able to do didly squat. *beats head on desk* AUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I'm going insane. I'm going to go insane where it's cooler now though. Stupid not having an air conditioner in my room.
