too weird of a mixture of feelings
February 04, 2004 at 1:34 a.m.
Ok...so I'm sorta pissed, sorta excited, and really, really blushy/giddy/happy right now. Very weird combination. I'm pissy because Crystal has decided to go back on the deal we originally had set up for sharing the room and forced me into another one. Because yes, she did basically force me into it. Didn't even give me a chance to reply. I would have been willing to work something out with her. I mean, I have asked her at least twice that I can bring to mind if she wanted to rework the schedule. Both times she said no. I was starting to feel all comfortable like with the deal. (Ok, so I always liked the deal....but I was starting to feel that it was working out just fine.) But POOF! it's been changed. *grumble moan piss complain* We'll see how things turn out.I'm in the excited mode because Jerrod has awesome friends. His birthday is Sunday and Rachel and Emily both know what he's been dealing with as far as everything with me and Crystal goes. I'm sure there are more reasons...such as they're just cool people and what not too. But anyway, for his birthday, they decided to get him a hotel room with room service for just the two of us. It'll be awesome just getting to cuddle with him and watch tv and order some random thing for room service. So, I'm all excited about that coming around on Saturday. I just love spending time with him. He's sweet and cheesy (in a good way....) and makes me feel so special. Most importantly though, he makes me feel alright to be me. I do believe Jerrod is the only guy who's really been able to accomplish such a task so completely. (Not to offend my guy friends....there are just some things he makes me feel alright about that no one else has been able to.)
I'm all giddy/happy/blushy because of what Jerrod sent me on AIM just a short bit ago. And I quote: "Good night, my sweet, beautiful, INTELLINGENT(;-)), awesome, sexy, lovely, superfine, so cool she's cold, spifforiffic, divine, and overall bestest girl in the whole wide world Lita! If I could quantify my love for you, the stars in the Universe would not be enough...Nighters, hon, and sweetest dreams!!!" I leave the misspelling of intelligent in because of the fact that we had just had a conversation in which I revealed to him that he sometimes does make me feel stupid. Like when he's trying to help me with Calculus and I don't understand...he just gets frustrated. (Ok...so it's one thing he doesn't make me feel so grand about....but I do realize that he is more intelligent than I am and that he's not the model teacher...nor I the model student.)I wasn't going to say anything about the misspelling...but he pointed that out himself. lol Ah well. I still love him.
Peace!
