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January 21, 2004 at 3:50 p.m.
Well, here I be again. These last few days have been....interesting. I suppose I should put up this warning now....THIS ENTRY CONTAINS FEMALE PROBLEMS! THIS MEANS ALL THE GUYS WHO READ MY DIARY....YOU MAY WANT TO SKIP THIS ENTRY!!!!! Just a recommendation. If I actually cared that you knew, I wouldn't write it at all....I just figured you deserved a fair warning.So anyway, Thursday (I think...I'm mixed up on my days, but that will explained later.), I ended up going to see Big Fish with some of my friends. It's sad, but overall a good movie. Now that I think about it, I know it wasn't Thursday....just know that it was the end of last week. Stupid brain not preserving memories very well...It was prolly Friday. Anyway, it just so happened to be that time of the month and at 5, I was on my way upstairs to grab a pad...when all my friends came spilling out of the elevator door exclaiming that they were going to dinner and then to see a movie...Well...I haven't hung out with them very much so I definitely couldn't miss this opportunity.
So *poof* there I was at dinner...rushing to finish eating so we could get the theatre on time. On the way to see the movie, I tried asking everyone for a pad but alas...not a single person had one. *grumbles* Not that big a deal though...I mean, every public woman's bathroom has a machine with some sort of pad or something in it, right? At least that was my theory. After paying for my ticket and what not, Lisa and I found our way to the rest room and there was a glorious machine...or so I thought. I get a closer look at it and see.....jeweled "tattoos"...candy...and oh, what's this? A tampon? Sure...why not....I can handle using one for the movie. So I pay the friggin' 75 cents and out pops this box that's like the size of a tiny match box. I pull the thing out and am just like "What the hell?" While Lisa stands beside me laughing her head off and asking if they gave me the right thing. It had to be...it did say Tampon on the side. But how the hell is something that fits in that small of box supposed to stem the flow of blood?????
I finally get to the point where I can open the box and out comes this tiny tampon no bigger than my pinkie....with no friggin' applicator. Can you say pain?? I sure could. Stupid thing. I was lucky enough to be able to ignore it during the movie, but when we got out I had to keep pressuring my friends to hurry up and leave. I needed to get back to the dorms!!! ARGH!!!!! So yeah...that was not exactly fun...except for the whole getting to hang out with some of my awesome friends.
And then, Friday night, Jerrod's room mate was supposed to be going home to spend the night so Jerrod invited me over. It turned out that Chris decided not to go home, but he was kind enough to stay out of the room. So I spent the night with Jerrod. It was great too. We watched some anime and what not...but we also stayed up til about 6 in the morning just talking. I won't deny that there was kissing involved as well, but hey...we did talk a good portion of the time. I'm so unbelievably happy that I feel that secure around him. We slept (sorta...) in his bed while holding each other. Of course...his bed is friggin' uncomfortable as all get out, but it was worth it just to be near him. He says that the first time I fell asleep I started sort of a moaning whine and then my arm started spazing out. Teeheehee...guess I wasn't having such a great dream. Who knows? Neither of us got much sleep of course, but that's alright. The first time I saw a clock Saturday morning was 10:40. Jerrod and I ended up staying right where we were til 12:00 or so. Mom wasn't very happy when she found out, but she'll live. In all honesty, if I had the opportunity to do it again, I probably would. Scratch that, if he asked me to again, I know I would. Then again, I'm a bed hog so....lol. But hey! It evens out...He stole all the covers!
Crystal was going through Robbie withdrawl all weekend because he went home. And then there was a whole big blow up between the two of them. But in all honesty, I really don't feel up to even pondering on it. My brain just couldn't handle it right now. And I'm not going to ask it to. I am getting frustrated though. I was under the impression that I could have the room at night so that I could have some time with Jerrod...but pretty much every night since about mid last week, Crystal has in some way ended up staying in the room. At least for most of the time. It's really started to bother me. I don't mind finding somewhere else to go with Jerrod every now and then, and I don't in anyway think it's fair to have the room every night...but I would still like my time. I don't know...I just can't figure out how I should feel about it right now.
Last night, while Crystal was laying in bed with a sick stomach from STRESS and WORRYING about Robbie, Jerrod and I ended up walking to Starbuck's. Our second off campus date. ^^ After he bought our stuff (even though I said I was going to buy my own), we sat down at a nice little table sort of away from everything else. Eventually, we ended up sitting there holding hands across the table. And before we left...he kissed my hand. He's just so corny some times....but I love every minute of it. I'm just so unbelievably lucky.
Which is why I'm suddenly very confused. I don't have any right to feel down. But I'll save that for a later entry...
Peace!
